Hi, MrsKing!
Glad that you are back and posting!
Experience is hard, and we, human beings, really prefer to learn making our own mistakes. It's just so human.
You have the whole year under your belt! You know how to quit, you know how to keep up a great job. And now you know this for sure and by your own experience.
And thanks for being so honest - I think a lot of people who have passed some long-distance milestones will read this and learn from your post. Me for sure.
Jump back on the wagon, you have all our support!
Take care.