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Old 05-18-2013, 01:06 PM
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EverySngleNight
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After so many years, and so many attempts to quit or moderate- back and forth etc etc- I've only just this last week stopped hiding behind my intelligence and rationalizations. I'm an alcoholic. I can't drink. If I do, my life is going to be shite and I will die. One way or the other, it won't end well for me. What baffles me- I KNOW how it goes down! I KNOW better than to keep it up! But somewhere in me- I wanted power OVER it. I wanted to control it. That would make me the winner. But, I've played that game long enough... I'll never win. The game is rigged.
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