'I don't look like a smoker'. I like that. I guess that's because I'm not a smoker....
The anxiety is crushing though. I'm learning to sit with that when it comes because it does pass after 10 minutes or so. Urge surfing is a lifesaver at the moment. I'm finding that between bouts of panic and wanting to bang my head against something hard I'm actually quite strong about this. It's like I'm 2 different people...and I like the non-smoker better.
I'm still trying to argue with my AV though, I must try and stop that. I guess it scares me.
Right...deep breaths. We've got friends coming over tonight, and one of them smokes.
My AV likes that thought. I'm aware of that. I can take it.
And I will create that picture of myself as a non-smoker, good strategy. Thankyou so much.