I got into the chat room and would love to talk to anyone.
The trigger honestly was a relationship that was an extremely unwise choice for me given my history and vulnerability after last relapse. I knew it was not the way to take care of myself I don't want to trigger anyone else talking about the details except I know that the only way I was going to heal was with self care and I was going to intensive outpatient treatment to do that and then, boom, it brought me to knees and here I am again.