Saying it aloud is scary, but its important to remember you are more than just your drinking. There is a whole life to uncover, and you should be very proud for taking these first steps. Do you have any support besides us? Can you share with your family or a close friend? Go to AA meetings or other recovery groups? I spent a lot of time here in early recovery, and got support from my boyfriend. More people know now, but at first I was really embarrassed to talk about it.