I've heard people say "when I controlled my drinking, I couldn't enjoy it and when I enjoyed my drinking, I couldn't control it".
That is the way I feel, what is the point of having one or two - its just frustrating to not be able to have more (like 10 or 12).
I have been repeating the phrase "it starts with the first drink" which I now have a deeper understanding of and it has helped keep me sober for 30 days.