Day 1 of Year #2
Today I didnt roll over and try to sleep off my hangover. Today I didnt walk to the medicine cabinet and reach for the asprin. Today didnt start with me planning what time I would arrive at the bar. Today I didnt inventory my " supply " to make sure that I had enough Beer to get me through the night. Today I didnt make up a reason to call off of work. Today I didn't get my " travelers " ready by putting 2 on ice in the little cooler that use to hide under a jacket on the passenger side of my car. Today I'm not going to avoid answering calls from family members that might take me away from my " friends " at the Bar. Today I'm not going to blow off paying that utility bill so I have more money to drink on. Today I'm not going to walk past a pile of dirty clothes on my bedroom floor. Today I'm not going to walk past a sink full of filthy dishes. Today I'm not going to put anyone at risk or dread that police cruiser behind me. Today I'm not going to drive impaired. Today I'm not going to feel sorry for myself. Today I'm not going to contemplate not only how I will kill myself but where and when. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
Today I awoke to the sound of my neighbor mowing the lawn. Today I awoke to the sound of birds chirping. Today I opened my bedroom window and let in the sunshine, the warm 70 degree breeze and the smell of the freshly cut grass. Today I awoke with clear eyes and clear thinking. Today my life is back on track. Today I am closer to my family than I have been in years. Today my life has meaning. Today I want to help others. Today I have energy and purpose. Today I am ALIVE because today I am 1 year and 1 day sober. To all of you who are there with me you know how it feels. To all of you who strive to get there we are ALL here to help you, to applaud your efforts, to pick you up when you stumble, to be a shoulder to cry on, to be the hand on the other side of that high five. We are HERE to support you in ways that only those who have been THERE can. Heres hoping that TOMORROW will be YOUR TODAY !
God Bless.