I have forgotten homework, forgotten school confrences, been to school functions drunk. A few weeks ago my son wanted to join a baceball team. I lied to him and said I missed the sign up date. The real reason was because the time of day the games were played I would be to drunk to fake it. And the sad thing is, while I was drinking I didn't care. I am on my 7 day sober, and yesterday I went and signed him up for the team. He was so happy. I guess my point to all this is. Yes, I have done bad/ irresponsible things as an alcoholic mother. But it is not too late to fix things. Once my head was clear, I thought wow, I have some mending to do! And everything I mend gives me more drive and happiness for being sober. I thank God I was able to see this now, rather than when it might be too late to mend thing with my children. Sorry so long, but I can fully relate to what your going through.