I am the same. Im my 30's with small children. Binge drinking on the weekends turned into drinking every night, the time got earlier and earlier until I needed that drink after my first cup of coffee in the morning until I fell asleep at night. I still questioned if I was an alcoholic. Only you know. Only you can say I have an addiction and I need to stop. When it finally hit me that I had a problem and am indeed an alcoholic was when I was able to listen to and read other addicts who are honest. This is a great place, keep posting. This site with the help of AA has helped me so much.