jbds1281 sounds like how I felt when I had about 20 days just before Thanksgiving. At the time I couldn't imagine not drinking on Thanksgiving. I was really worried, but Dee had posted some things about getting through the holidays and about urge surfing that really helped. In a nutshell, what helped, and still helps me, is to think it all the way through when I think about drinking. THINK about the drink before you touch it, the knowing there will be more than one, certainly a drunk, hangover, headache or worse, regret and disappointment, or worse. Think it all the way through and be strong. Make it through and you will be that much stronger for the next hurdle. It takes a lot of serious work to get to 53 days. Keep it going. Don't let anyone twist your arm. Be firm. Nobody and no situation is important enough to give up your 53 days.