Welcome Steve! You found a great place where we all understand how you're feeling.
Drinking was affecting every aspect of my life, too - and I didn't stop until I was brought to my knees. I went on for many years trying to be a social drinker - couldn't imagine letting go of it. As a result I almost lost everything - and in the end, I was drinking 24/7. When I came here I knew I was no longer alone - and I found the courage to change my life. I know you can do it.