The first few days are always the worst. I was in a total state yesterday. I'm a 6ft guy who never really shows much emotion on the outside and there I was blabbering to my girlfriend all day. A combination of drinking with my anti depressants, and also the utter shame and disappointment I felt that i'd caved. With regards to them getting worse i'm not too wise to comment on that one as im still only in my early twenties, but so far they've all been utter hell I know that for sure.
As Dee says absolutely anybody can and deserves to be sober, you just gotta get that combination of 'checks and balances' in order. You had 3 weeks, you can do it again, and for longer
