Thank you both for replying. If I'm honest with myself I know there's a problem. I don't know if I'm a full blown alcoholic but my habits are not healthy, that's for sure. For instance, I start worrying if I'll have enough alcohol to last the day. And I've also begun hiding alcohol in my purse if I'm going out somewhere that doesn't have alcohol. That is not normal person behavior. I feel guilty and want to help myself but at the same time I want to be left alone with it. I don't know how to cope with life without alcohol.