Hi TM ,
Sorry about your loss . Just get through it moment by moment . It's how i delt with my mum when i had to take her with chest pains to A&E ...
Whatever happens Just don't drink .. Sometimes the only way to deal with difficult emotions is to bear them with as much good grace as we can and hope tomorow will be better ..
Tomorow will be better , stick with it ,
Big hug and bestwishes, M