Hi stayalive,
Your name says it all, you know why you're here.
Oh boy can I relate, the laundry list of excuses to drink is endless I know. I'm sort of a loner too, my work is done totally alone and I spend most all my free time in solitude.
You're not alone though, I'm here for you, as is everyone on this site.
You're no fool, you seem to be aware all those excuses to use are just that... EXCUSES! 9 days is huge, you should be proud.