I call it the shite fairy. It told me so many lies and got me enticed almost every day during my first 2 years of 1/4 trying. Then someone got me to stop drinking for a few days and pointed out the part of the second step about returning us to sanity, which I was rejecting because.......He explained how my repeated days of drinking and expecting different results was insane. Thank you for those patient old timers. It was also pointed out how being honest with myself is so important. Being aware is a must for someone trying to recover from this disease. BE WELL