Today is my day 1. I stayed home from work today because I'm having withdrawel syptoms and can barely stand the depression and anxiety. I've never been drunk at my job but I'm starting to fear my bosses are onto me having a problem with drinking and anxiety and depression. I don't want to lose this job! And I'm sooo miserable. I had two years of sobriety once but I feel like I'm so far gone there is no fixing me. I want to cry too. I hate having the fear and feeling like everyone is watching me. My dad thinks I should just be able to quit and he's pretty much done with me at this point. I only have my mom and some AA friends.
