Yeah my life is in shambles too now. I'm glad I'm sober though, that is the most important thing to me. I never even finished high school. Trust will be earned again. The longer your sober, the more trust you'll get from your husband.
The thing about your house being a mess, that happens to all of us. We get sober, and we realize what a cesspool we were living in. Heck, I remember when I got sober this one time, one of my many times trying, and I had to get rid of 600 empty beer bottles from my little apartment. Empties absolutely everywhere.
You have to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep going. We all had to, and some of us still have to.