" Sadly, I don't even remember talking to her, so I don't know what I said."
Wow... That was me for the Last year. We (GF and I) would both drink, argue, go to bed. Wake up in the morning (not remembering too much) hoping that there were a couple beers left in the fridge or my GF didn't finish her bottle of vodka.
I'm increasing a believer in the progressive take on this stuff for a lot of us (myself included). With each cycle the bad stuff gets a little worse. Prior to a year ago, I never had memory issues from drinking.
You're here posting. I think you think you want it and its gotta come from inside you somehow... Maybe try something different, any sort of trigger that set you off that you could eliminate?
PS Awesome on Making it to Work, I know I couldn't have done it.