Hang in there, it gets better if we let it. It's not feasible to expect perhaps years of self-indulgence will be fixed in a few days. I got sober in AA years ago and I know there are thousands of meetings within 30 miles of the state house. I know of many BS reasons not to go but my question is, how long do you want to stay miserable? Triggers are good to know but better to do something about. There are answers here and AA on a STS basis, and they work if we follow the concept of not picking up the first drink for whatever reason.
BE WELL