You are getting such good advice. Glad that you did start posting about how you feel, and what has been going on. Please listen to all of this good advice. I wish I had it when I needed it. Maybe I did, but I was listening then. Just remember we are all with you, and if you need IRL, I am just about an hour away, just have to drive down route 81, I think. I can hold your hand and I can give you hugs. Just take care of yourself and your children. You now have an army behind you.