Welcome to SR intriptik!
You're not alone in this - we all know what you're going through.
Many times I had beer for breakfast. Then drank all day. Odd how I justified it for so long. When I found SR I was so glad to know I wasn't the only one who'd done these things. It was so good to have a place to talk it over with people who really understood. Glad to have you with us, and congratulations for making this decision.