Thanks all. It feels good telling other people how this disease allowed me to ignore such neon sign evidence that I had a problem.
As supportive and wonderful my husband is....and he truly is, I can't yet verbalize all this to him yet. He was aware of some of it of course, but not all. And although he wouldn't judge me, I am afraid of seeing the shock and disbelief in his eyes, because that would hurt.
I am telling him more bit by bit, and thankfully he is very patient. In the meantime, it's nice to have you all to as well.