Dude, how long have you been attending AA meetings?
AA to most of us is completely unnatural at the beginning. AA asks us to do things that we don't like, don't understand, don't want to do and find useless.
Go to different meetings and listen to others take on things.
The truth is you don't know what you don't know and the oldtimers will teach you if you pay attention.
Sit down and read "HOW IT WORKS" and see what those words mean to you. Ask your sponsor and the oldtimers what the words mean to them.
In the beginning I could find 99 excuses to leave and 1 to stay. I focused on that 1 and am eternally grateful I did.
All the best. Have some faith that this will work and embrace it. You will be grateful too one day.
Bob R