Thank you all for your honesty and advice. I know the whole situation is ridiculous and I never should have put myself in that position. I understand the anger and distrust that my family is feeling. I have given my children a lot of space and time over the last 2mos. I was just getting to the point where I felt I had shown through my steps in recovery that I was serious about my recovery. This is a major setback in that regard. Even though I have proof that I am not using they think I was looking to use.
Unfortunately, my husband has made it very clear that if I don't do something concrete to fix this then he is going to divorce me. I know focusing on my recovery is paramount but I want and need my family....they are all I have :-/.