Originally Posted by
Sinderos 
I live in a small town where everyone knows someone you know. The last thing I need is someone slipping and my employer finding out I have a problem so I won't go to AA. I have started going to a church that has a program for single people and I've joined the gym. Those activities have gotten me out of the house (which is where I do my drinking) and has really helped me feel alive. Another trigger for me is this is Mothers Day and it makes me sad. My 21 yr old son is addicted to meth and I haven't heard from him in months. It hurts my heart to the core. What's crazy is I've only been drinking for 2 1/2 years, but became a full blown alcoholic in that short period of time. Guess the addiction gene runs in our family.
I like the fact that you have found the gym, and your church. I want to touch base on the secret of your drinking. If you decide to go into a meeting, news does not spread like wild fire that you have attended an AA meeting. There is no shame in the fact that we need help with a problem. If I am struggling with my home life, or struggling with something else, I turn to people that I trust for help. I need help at times. If you decide to go to an AA meeting, you may find lasting friendships, and one on one support that you otherwise wouldn't have. You may begin to trust someone there. We are here for you.