Maybe part of the problem is that you think that you need to do this all by yourself.
Sure, you are the only one that can keep yourself from not drinking, but there is SO much support out there that can help you get through this. It all starts with you, BUT you don't need to travel this road alone.
Utilize this site, there are meetings to not only do the steps but to go to and meet other people that are sober and doing the same things, there is a world of people out there that don't drink every night and surrounding yourself with those people will help (it def. helped me get my mind off of using and showed me there are other things to do), get a new hobby and then join a group that does it, embrace your community you live in and reach out, go to doctors they can help you, go to therapists to get to the root of the problem since it is never as easy as it seems, reach out to your family and create a support system to lean on, etc.
You don't need to do this alone!