I live in a small town where everyone knows someone you know. The last thing I need is someone slipping and my employer finding out I have a problem so I won't go to AA. I have started going to a church that has a program for single people and I've joined the gym. Those activities have gotten me out of the house (which is where I do my drinking) and has really helped me feel alive. Another trigger for me is this is Mothers Day and it makes me sad. My 21 yr old son is addicted to meth and I haven't heard from him in months. It hurts my heart to the core. What's crazy is I've only been drinking for 2 1/2 years, but became a full blown alcoholic in that short period of time. Guess the addiction gene runs in our family.