This site has really helped me. Also check out this book Living Sober Sucks. When any of the bad thoughts came into my head that caused me to want to out and drink it helped to read the stories of the other people that lived though what I was going though and how they dealt with it. Today is day 48 for me and its been some of the longest and hardest days of my life and I foresee more long and hard day before me. I've learned I have no one else to blame for what I'm going though right now but myself. I've learned I was just hiding from myself and the world inside a bottle at some dive bar. I don't know where a clean and sober life is going to take me, but it has to be better than a drunk life. Best of luck to you on getting sober. Just prepare your mind for a really hard road ahead of you. Stay with this site and check out the book I told you about and others like it.