I am sorry to hear about your fathers passing MythOfSisyphus and i am glad that you have managed to turn it all around, it really does inspire me when i read these stories
One of the problems i face when i try and quit is i get reaaaaaaally depressed, just zoned out and totally and utterely in this weird world of sadness and depression so the first thing i do is run to the bottle, But like i say i am goona try and turn it around and switch my mental thinking in a positive manner.