Hi Zorah,
The fact that you have said you haven't been going to meetings, tells you right there you need to get back in the driver's seat & go to 2-3/day if you can. I've been called in to work today for the first time in bout 3 wks, so all I've been doing is going to meetings, 12 stepping newbies & reading lit @ home. I know this disease will talk to me the min I slack off. I URGE you to go to 1 Asap & share how u feel & more than likely, u'll not be the only 1 in the room feeling that way