I've been away for awhile--trying to stay sober, moving, dealing with mental health issues, etc. I'm about 9 months sober now. The first six months, as bad as they were, seemed somehow easier than the last three. Part of the problem is that I've sloughed off on my meetings a bit. Already, my mind is starting to chat about how I could probably drink responsibly again, that my alcoholism didn't get to the worst stage so there's some wriggle room. I know this is false but you know the chatter. This alone is telling me to get to a meeting which I will tonight.
But I'm wondering from all of you--what are your signs. Like I'm so squirrely today I have to hide from people and agitated and depressed--all at once. I thought, oh, this is the new medication I'm on or, the mental issues I'm dealing with. But I wonder if it's the lapse in meetings. the first year is rocky right?
Hope you're all well. I need to stay in better touch!
Zorah
