Your not alone... I know the feeling you're feeling .... I've held those tears back and have continued... I've been here for a couple weeks now and haven't even begun my story I'm not sure how to start it... It's a long one That's for sure. This is my second trip down the sobriety roller coaster... Maybe someday I'll tell my story when I'm ready... But today I'm focusing on not giving in to my craving ... I need to go home and sleep