Hi and welcome. A first step towards recovery is acknowledging the problem by being honest with ourselves. The next thing is following directions by successful people here and/or AA (shudder) which has helped many millions world wide and has world wide help available in the form of skin meetings. Many people consider stop smoking harder than our other vices so you might succeed. I, especially in the beginning had to accept things I didn't want to, like it's the first drink that gets me drunk, operate on the one day at a time theory, I wanted everything NOW, think about NOT drinking and remember if we don't pick up that first drink we don't have to get sober again one day at a time. All simple things but perhaps not easy all the time. BE WELL