My birthday’s never seem to be what I envision for them and I don’t like attention focused on me. I wondered the same thing before; why am I so miserable on my birthday. For me, I think this is a result from being a codependent. I feel that I am not good enough for the attention. I feel in a way I don’t deserve all the affection. I also tend to do what I’m “supposed” to do on my birthday instead of what I really want to do. I’m “supposed” to go out the eat. I’m supposed to have a party. I am still trying to figure out what I want for myself instead. This year I wanted to go sky diving for my birthday. I didn’t get to do it, because I didn’t have the money, but hopefully next year. It’s still on my goal list.
I hope sometime today you can find some time to do the things you really want to do and you can have a happy birthday like you deserve!!