day 1
Well today I am feeling very frustrated and sad. Have been trying for a year to stay sober. I say trying but that is not really the truth. I started going to AA meetings after I got a DWI. I was sober for 8 months and for some reason I stopped going to meetings and stopped calling my sponsor. It didn’t take long for me to start drinking again. Before my DWI I was an all day drinker drinking am to pm. After the DWI, I detoxed at home and swore I would never drink again. Did not last. At the point now where I am very scared as to what my future will bring. I guess I should face the fact that I need to put in the work if I want to be sober. I thought I would cure myself just by wishing I did not want to drink. The fear of going to jail (on probation), is not even enough for me to stop. I am going to a meeting tonight and am terrified as to what the weekend will bring.