I'm working through my 7th week sober. At first everything was new and, while difficult, it was exciting. Now things have settled into real life and the reality of sobriety is sinking in. I'm realizing this is a lot of hard work and I have to deal with myself without that buffer of alcohol and drugs. I'm discovering a lot about myself but sometimes I don't like what I discover. The thoughts of drinking/using often start to sneak in. I've gotten a glimpse into what sobriety has to offer. I really want what I've seen. I'm rambling again. I hope it helps.