I can really relate to this, animalnurse. I've been feeling like this too. It's like, I know what will happen if I go back and drink, but I don't really like being sober either. It's a tough spot to be in. But it's still early for me, and it seems to have gotten better for a lot of people who stayed sober. So, that is what is help keeping me going.
D, your post really hit home. I keep thinking that quitting is going to magically make everything better, and it seems I end up disappointed. But better, I guess, to deal with things head on, rather than make them worse with drinking.