Non,
yeah, that is the trouble spot: you have determined that you are done. several times.
if determination that you're done is all it takes, then you ought to have been done after the first time you determined you were. then there would only be one time of that determination.
this was such a sore place for me for so long. determined. committed. decided. absolutely. and then walked into the store and bought the stuff.
what will you do with this?
easy to say in retrospect "oh, my big plan couldn't have been the real one."
not really different from saying"oh, i guess i didn't work the program right, or i wouldn't have drunk again."
just some thoughts.
interested in yours.