Went to a meeting
Well I explained to my Boss my situation and he allowed me to go to a meeting on my lunch break, it was the first meeting I have been to in almost 4 years, and it was amazing. i feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of me, and I teared up throughout the entire meeting because it was very emotional, but I feel so good and i pray that I can stick with the program and find a way to meetings no matter what it takes, because i want what they have, I really really do. Trying to quit by myself isn't working, I need support and I know where to get it.