Don't give up!! You're heart is in the right place.. Get back in the saddle and try again.. Go to more meetings maybe a different time..My bad activitys started after 5pm so I've been attending the 7pm meetings, I get there early and stay late and go eat dinner or do something with the fellowship after the meetings and it was a huge help.. You can do this!! Stop the insanity today!! Wishing you luck!!