Yes it is lonely. But everytime I dipped my toe in the crazy pool I regretted it. I have chosen to have a lonely but SANE life. I find other people to be friends with and I am in touch with a few 2nd and 3rd generation kids in the family. But it's not really like having family. So I made my family with my husband and my own kids, brought them up in the church and we kept very busy and happy.
Fatally if you have been banished, I know the feeling well
, then there is not much you can do but pray and hope. What can you do if you are banished? It's hard but you have to let go and let God. Hard to accept and even harder to do. But well worth your sanity.