Hello Non,
Sorry to hear you had a slip-up yesterday. My AV is also ruthless and almost lead me in the wrong direction yesterday. It had me convinced, so I checked with my husband if he thought having "one or two glasses of wine" would be okay. Husband said, "Ummm, isn't that The Beast talking?"
I am sure it was a big disappointment to your family, but you should see it as a slip-up, a speed bump on the road to permanent abstinence. Sometimes I go to YouTube and look at video compilations of drunk people acting stupid when I hear the AV talking. It works pretty well to talk it down. I also read the AVRT book and remind myself that permanent abstinence is the bare minimum of what my family deserves.
It is hard.
Hope you feel better. Best wishes to you and your family.