I relapsed once after my real attempt at quitting and it was one of the worst weekends of my life. The worst yet actually. But you don't have to wait to take sobriety seriously until the yets happen which I'm sure you already know. My AV also tells me I can "relapse and just come back" but I don't want to risk not being able to come back. Welcome to sr, glad you're here, you'll find a ton of support!