All I can say is it's not what you look at, its what you you see. The reality of people trying to quit is that for most it takes numerous attempts and what your're doing is normal rationalization. Relapsing happens until it stops happening. Give yourself a couple weeks or so and you'll have a different perspective. Nothing wrong with you, you just have a little "stinkin thinkin" going on, and that will pass. You'll get to the point where you read a relapse post and think; God that sucks, but its the reality of the game, I hope their OK and nothing really bad happened, and I so don't want that to be me tomorrow morning.