I know the feeling of shame and embarressment... it is torture and will make you want to drink that feeling away... it doesn't take it away, it makes more embaressing and harmful events happen, drunk texts, calls, fights and scenes.
Please don't let your feeling of dispair and humiliation and unworthyness take over. Tell yourself "that was yesterday, today is a new day. I will make things good, I just need time"
Then work on yourself.