Thankyou for your posts.
I do not feel anger at all just incredulity really. And some sadness....quite a lot of that.
I feel pity for them in some ways because they will never experience the joys of their children like I do mine.
And I am not judging the alcoholism because I'm in no place to do that. But the violence and mental torture was something I just don't get, and maybe I never will.