To be clear I am not at all trying to be fair.
I am trying to follow the law and not give him one single inch with which to say "see she is alienating me, she is keeping the girls, she isn't adhering to the parenting plan etc..."
It is not at all about fairness.
I totally understand this is a dangerous situation and I am not comfortable with my inability to up and leave and disappear.
I have explored that option. I'll leave it at that. If I do and get caught I WILL lose my kids and that is not something I am risking.
The girls therapist (who they went back to seeing 3 weeks ago after a 1 yr hiatus) has already called DCYF after our last session with her and she told me she was. He has nt directly hurt the girls but his on going verbal attacks that they reported and she verified with me are, in her estimation (and mine) abuse toward them.
I think right now there are more and more protections falling into place and more and more people aware of his behavior and that makes me feel safer than I have in a long time.
I have nothing material that I care about-- walking away from objects isn't an issue. I simply won't react even in the interest of protecting the girls, in a way that ultimately would make me LESS able to protect them.
Not sure if that makes sense?
I have changed the house locks (well not me but I had them changed yesterday) and feel like I am taking the steps I can to protect myself and the girls as much as humanly possible.
I am open to suggestions but I am not sure what more I can do right now.
Leaving and disappearing is not an option. I will not give him that.