Alycen - you have come to the right place. There is not one road to recovery, and that in itself has many definitions as well. Please understand that I am an alcoholic and unfortunately did cross that invisible line where I cannot moderate. Trust me, I tried.
Only you know if you have crossed and cannot drink in moderation. My best advice is not to lie to yourself. As long as you are truly honest when you look in the mirror the answers to your questions will materialize. I've lied to my own reflection, but I've always known deep down that I was lying. Eventually, I stopped. It was the day I chose a sober life over 8 months ago.
You will find a lot of experience, strength and hope here. Take what you need and leave the rest as the saying goes...wishing you much success however you define it
