hey Myth.
My dad's second year anniversary is next week. I lost him suddenly, no good byes etc.
I was traumatised and in so much pain - drank wine (lots) for past couple of years (I'm just 2.5 months sober).
Sober now and finally at acceptance stage. I am so grateful my mother is alive and well. Yet I often think what will happen should she die suddenly, or become ill. So reading your post struck a cord with me.
I have thought, if anything happened I'd drink my way through that too. But thankfully now, I genuinely feel that I won't (for the obvious reasons). Good to see you are feeling that way too.
Yep write those thoughts and feelings down. (does no good to bottle em up)
btw, well done on 7 months. I'm still a newbie in comparison. Other than SR do you have any other supports? I'm struggling but am determined.
Best wishes and thankfully your mom has been diagnosed at early stage.